Its 10:44am and I’m incessantly chomping down on my gum typing
90 mph. All I know at this moment in time is my gum is rapidly becoming stale,
I’m irritated and I want to shoot myself in the foot for where I am today. Most
days I’m pretty happy where I am in life. Despite all my challenges and missed
opportunities I am grateful for the person I am today. I still have much to
accomplish and become. However, I’m exhausting myself thinking about how much I
just didn't do or perhaps simply fucked up in my 20’s. I know hindsight is
20/20 and it’s keeping your eyes on the prize that matters.
I just resent wasted time. I resent not trying harder in
school and finding a better job. I resent my demons that taxed so much of my
mind and body that there is an ongoing extensive rehab project. I should have
saved more. I should have learned more. I should have worked more. I should
have loved more. My quarter-life crisis grew into a full-fledged kindergartner
and then one day it just simply missed the bus. As abruptly as those days were
over I discovered a new compounding cluster of obscurity emerged. I think I found myself moving forward through
a continuous haboob. Luckily, much has cleared up but somewhere near is the
clarity I’m so eagerly searching for now.
Through much of my resentment and hindsight I found passion
again. I realized the power of passion and how greatly it impacts our
existence. I came to his write this blog to seek clarity and calmness. The key strike
is slower and lighter. I need to stop existing to get through the days, but instead
fuel my passion to create powerful days com-busting with love, positivity,
compassion and purpose. I figure my existence on this earth is validated by one
single act a day; if I can help or make one person smile the validity of my
purpose is solidified. I've simplified it to those terms and I think it works.
Starting each day with a simplistic positive attitude enriches the rest of our
day. I've learned the recipe for
happiness in life is truly about making the most of one day at a time and
helping one person at a time. Michael Jackson did leave us one of the powerful
messages before his early departure to start with the man in the mirror and
make that change. I know the song is so cliche but speaks volumes of truth. It
starts from within and ripples outward. The universe knew what it was doing
when energy was created. I truly believe in the law of attraction: what you put
out will multiply when it comes back to you. Catch a ripple and pass it on. In
fact ride the ripple and you’ll find yourself surfing bigger waves of
positivity and happiness.
